I’m here, my mind is not. My brain is cluttered with a million things swirling around. I’m restless and my husband is all too aware of what I’m going through. It’s not the first time he’s seen me like this. He tells me to go outside and get some fresh air while he takes care of the dirty dishes. I hesitate, but eventually comply.
I open the front door and walk onto the balcony. I hear the kids screaming, playing, fighting inside. I inhale the cool breeze and look at the apartments looming across the road. I wish we lived in a bigger apartment with a gym, a pool, our own private terrace.
I hear clanging as the sons try to help my husband with the dishes. A dishwasher would make life so much simpler. I gather the dried laundry from the clothesline and walk inside wondering how much time a clothes dryer would save me.
I dump the clothes onto the couch and walk back outside. My eyes fall on a small thatched house. My perspective changes as I wonder what the lady who lives there wishes for. Running water? A gas stove? A comfortable mattress?
I am humbled. I have enough. I walk back into the house, into reality. I am grateful. I am here, fully present. Happy.
Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” (Hebrews 13:5)
I have Him. He is more than enough for me.